Blind Trust has always been a strange concept to me. Trust ,by definition, involves the “belief that someone or something is reliable, good, honest, effective”. Blindness is inevitable in a sense. Trust does not stipulate proof, but belief. It is part of our lives in so many ways, isn’t it? We trust our friends will keep our secrets . . . our spouses will uphold wedding vowels . . . our kids with babysitters . . . our job to be there tomorrow . . . our paycheck to arrive on payday. The list goes on and on. Trust is such a crazy concept because it involves vulnerability, or blindness.
Have you ever done a trust fall? I remember in middle school doing a ropes course with my Girl Scout troop (hence the ridiculously old picture of us). There was a lot of “blind” trust involved. If you were hundreds of feet off the ground you had to trust the person on the other end of your safety rope. When you fell off the edge of the picnic table you had to trust your friends to catch you. We were not strangers to each other, we were friends who trusted one another. There was a relationship built on trust.
I confessed last week in my blog that trust has been haunting me throughout this Lenten season. I can’t seem to shake it. The challenge to trust God seems to be beating me over the head. I have a friend that describes this as God hitting us over the head with a 2×4, meaning that God often has to teach us and then re-teach the same lesson over and over. No, not you? Just me??
Most of my high school friendships were built on faith. Being a Christian was a big part of our identity and therefore a big part of why we trusted each other. In friendship you trust that your friend has your best interest at heart, that they love you, and that they do not desire to hurt you but instead to encourage and support you. This was magnified in our friendships because of our relationship with Jesus, we trusted Him first. Of course we were still teenage girls with crazy hormones who were all aboard the emotional roller coaster of teenage life. But when I reflect back on these friendships, I remember trust being an essential part.
In marriage our relationship must be built on trust. In order to commit your life to another, you are trusting in the vowel of forever, “til death do us part”. I trust Robert to love me, to honor me, to be faithful to be, to stay committed to our marriage for life. So in this relationship trust becomes the foundation. Then over time the initial trust is built on and strengthened. But still, is is not blind to an extent? When you begin a marriage you do not know how everything will play out. You trust your spouse without having full sight as we never know what we will face together – this would be impossible (and probably make marriage impossible).
So how does this concept of trust in human relationship carry over into our relationship with God? I have been reflecting a lot on Hillsong’s big song of 2013, Oceans. It delves deep into the concept of trust. Toward the end of the song it says this:
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
Trust without borders is an intense concept. But it seems to be the only type of trust possible when it comes to God. After all, you can’t really trust Him half way, it is all or nothing. Peter walked on water until his trust turned to doubt and he started to sink. Remember this story? Jesus walks on water and his disciples think he is ghost, and then this happens:
“Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.” “Come,” he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!” Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”
It was only when Peter took his eyes off Jesus and focused on the wind and the rain that he began to sink. It was the attempt to border his trust that allowed fear of the very real weather conditions to take over. Stepping out of a boat in a storm could probably qualify as trust without borders; the real deal when it comes to an all or nothing type of trust. Borders fade to the background when trust takes over.
Trust was the foundation of Peter’s water-walking experience; and the heart of his relationship with Jesus. Just like trust is key to friendship and essential to marriage, trust is the root of our relationship with Jesus. The trust in Jesus is a different kind of trust. It keeps our eyes on him, instead of focused on the fear that tempts us to place our trust in things that will inevitably fail us. When it comes to Jesus we cannot trust a little, or in part, or some of the time. We have to be willing to trust ALL the time and with EVERYTHING. If a friend turns our secret into gossip the trust is broken. If a husband neglects to keep one of his vowels the trust is lost. So what happens when trust fails between us and God? One word: grace.
This is the good news, we never lose our place with Him. Even when we feel like we are sinking, Christ is right there to pull us out of the water and remind us that our trust belongs in Him alone. Because the truth about trust in relationship is this: in our relationships with each other we have to put our trust in God as well. We have to trust God with our husbands, our children, our friends, our careers, and yes even our paychecks. Putting our trust alone in anything else will fail us because it involves too much dependence on something or someone imperfect. It gives us trust amnesia, we forget trust in God comes first.
Are you willing to trust without borders, to be lead by the Spirit of God out onto the water, wherever he may call you? Are you willing to trust him amidst the wind and the rain? Or do you wanna stay safe and sound in the boat? Because that is an option, but one that will never take you where God wants to lead you! Think about what happens when we put our trust in God at the core of not only our relationship with Him, but all our relationships. It means we trust God to bring healing and hope to our marriages, our friendships, our family relations . . . to every area of our life. Our trust in him cannot have borders or we will limit our ability to understand who we are in Him. We will miss the chance to walk on water, we might even miss the boat completely.