The stomach bug hit our house two nights ago. Adeline was up and crying a number of times and Robert and I simply could not figure out what was going on with her. Finally around 1:30am the answer came in the form of vomit. She threw up about 3 times, in her bed, in the hall, and right in front of the toilet in the bathroom. Then she was fine. I hosed her down in the bathtub while Robert changed her sheets, and exhausted from being up 4 times in 4 hours we all went to bed.
Until about 4am . . . when Maisie woke up crying, sick — again. After about 30 minutes of soothing and a bottle I got her back down and hit my own bed again for another hour of sleep before the alarm went off to start the day.
So when 6am rolled around I got out of bed and went downstairs to begin my morning routine. I got my breast pump ready, grabbed some coffee, and sat down in the rare but ever so peaceful quiet for personal devotions. As I opened my devotional and began reading I actually chuckled out loud when I read the first couple words, “Dear God, I’m so tired . . ” #LOL
I immediately thought of just how real the following words of Jesus from Matthew 6:8 were to me in that moment
” . . . your Father knows what you need before you ask him.”
After a night of being up 5 times between 2 kids, cleaning up throw up, soothing a baby, and barely sleeping because my own stomach felt uneasy, a devotion that begins with “I’m so tired” felt rather appropriate. One that pointed to the following text from Ephesians, with a gentle reminder of who we really work for.
“Work with enthusiasm, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people.” ~Ephesians 6:7
It is truly amazing how God knows exactly what we need and relentlessly pursuits us because he wants to demonstrate love by meeting our needs.
Usually I would be tempted to skip over a devotion that reminds us that we work for the Lord and to keep up our energy if we are getting bored with the everyday tasks. I might just skim through a writing that encourages us to see our job as doing God’s work, no matter what our vocation is. I would most likely write it off as irrelevant for a pastor who clearly works for God (please note my sarcasm here).
But this time it was as if God was speaking straight to my heart. Because he was. Telling me that he had equipped me for the day and reminding me that I have the energy I need . . . because of Him.
What was my need? Energy.
What did God give me? Energy, and a reminder it comes from him.
So what Jesus is saying in Matthew about God knowing what we need before we even say it is not just a cute idea. It is a hardcore truth. A reality. An actual manifestation of God’s love for us. A demonstration of his desire to provide for our EVERY need.
Not what we want necessarily, and not even what we think we might need. And definitely not when we think we need it, or how, or why . . . . but on his time and way he meets our actual needs. He knows them. He sees them. He meets them. Not on our own timeline, on his. Not in our way, in His. And it is probably safe to say that many a times, we don’t even recognize his provision because we are so focused on what we want instead of what God is trying to give us.
Today I am thankful for a God who meets my needs, the One who gives me the energy I need to be a Mom, a Wife, and a Pastor. That God-given energy infused by the Spirit that fuels the many days that come after sleepless nights. I am grateful for His Word, that is Truth, and reveals His love.
I am overwhelmed by the Father’s desire to care for me . . . and blessed to personally know the One who meets my every need.